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28th August 2007
sickcyclenz @ :
i am in this old broken down hostel. the old, decrepit, falling away house barely stands on its own foundations. as in many of my dreams, the paint is like its suspended half between the moment it burns, and before, charring in and out of reality kinda.
and i am there, the scene is set for a party. our crew assembles: good friends, mates, mates of mates, from my town.
the drinking begins, hard spirits and beer, and then a girl next to me, invisible before, pulls out a sheet of acid. i drop a tab and alice caresses my inhibitions softly.
snap! and all is gone, the spiralling perfect fractals pitter-patter out, and all there is now is chaos. rape and crying, rape and crying, rape and crying, is all i hear. a moment passes, and then down the hallway i hear a strike. someone is in trouble, but it doesnt bother me. i avoid the issue, and put it down to my trip kicking in.
a girl walks past, completely naked, alone and longing. i take her and use her without thought. she is a tool here, as am i. the deed is done and feel numb, but i feel something human remaining. my lizard brain fades and i remember emotion once more.
snap! more beating sounds from down the hallway. i follow this time. the blonde girl that gave me the acid from before is brutally raping another girl in the bathtub, and she is wrapped in barbed wire. her every movement from the pain of the fist amplifies itself through the barbed wire. i smile at the girl in charge and understand her logic. she smiles back, and thrusts harder.
what? who am i? why do i condone this? i shake my head and the thoughts fade once more, but slowly the overwheling sadistic smile returns, and i drop my pants and jack off over the girl.
snap! and the girls stops the act, and throws a plugged in hairdryer into the bath. the girl shakes violently around the bath, and blood seeps out from her eyes and nose. the patterns in the water as her coagulated blood stretches itself out across the muddy water is amazing, and i see the fractals once more in my mind, out of my mind.
such beauty, such hate, i say to myself. now just blonde dead innocence. now just perfect silence.
"you, i like you. you let out what you want, when you want"
"you indulge your wildest fantasies"
"youre defintely going to hell though, if you beleive in it"
beautiful, love, confused, blonde, pink, blue eyes.
clean, awake, alert, deceiving, evil, psycho killer.
28th October 2006
buddylauri @ : DREAMING OF THE 13TH CENTURY
I KEEP WAKING UP SITTING UP IN BED.I HAVE A TENDECY TO DO THIS,AMONG OTHER THINGS,WHEN I'M UNDER ALOT OF STRESS.I'M LOOKING FOR SOMETHING,WHAT IT IS,I HAVE NO IDEA.I'VE EVEN WOKEN UP WITH MY CELL PHONE IN MY HAND,AND LATER I NOTICE THAT SOME THINGS ARE CHANGED OR DELETED.MAYBE IN MY DREAM STATE I'M TALKING TO SOMEONE SO I GRAB MY PHONE? I KNOW I TALK IN MY SLEEP,I'VE ACTUALLY WOKE MYSELF UP YELLING.AT WHAT OR WHO I'VE GOT NO IDEA.I'VE HAD DREAMS WHERE I'M REALLY THERE.I CAN SMELL THE GRASS AND FEEL THE WIND AS IT LIGHTLY BLOWS THRU MY HAIR.EVERYTING IN THE DREAM WORLD IS SO VERY INTENSE.GREEN IS SO GREEN,BLUE IS SO BLUE YOU CAN ALMOST TOUCH IT,AND ON AND ON IT GOES.......I DREAMED OF CHINA,BUT IT WAS DURING THE 13TH CENTURY.JUST THE SHEER BEAUTY OF THE HILL SIDE I STOOD ON WAS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME WISH TO STAY.I WAS TAKEN TO AN OUTSIDE BATH HOUSE,IT WAS HUGE,OPEN ON ALL 4 SIDES ONLY SHEER CURTIANS HUNG DOWN TO GIVE PRIVACY.THE STEAM FROM THE WATER WAS SLOWLY RISINGAS I DROPPED MY ROBE AND PROCEEDED TO STEP IN TO THE BATH.TWO SERVANTS POURED PURFUMED OIL INTO THE WATER. I COULD SMELL ALL THE SCENTS AROUND ME.FROM THE GRASS SORRONDING THIS OPEN BATHHOUSE TO THE STEAM FILLED WITH THE SCENT OF THE RARE PERFEMED OILS THEY HAD PUT IN THE BATH.I COULD EVEN FEEL THE WATER AS IT FLOWED AROUND ME.I KNEW THAT I HAD BEEN HERE.I ALREADY KNEW THE REASONS FOR THIS BATH AND THE SERVANTS.I WAS NOT OF NOBLE BIRTH.I TOO WAS A SERVANT OF THE HOUSE THIS BATH HOUSE BELONGED TO.THIS WAS THE ONE AND ONLY GIFT I WOULD EVER RECIEVE IN MY SHORT LFE. IN THE 13TH CENTURY,THERE WERE ALOT OF BANDITS,KILLERSECT.AND THE MAN WHO I SERVED,HAD ASKED ME TO GIVE MYSELF TO THE MEN WHO WERE COMING.IN ORDER THAT HIS FAMILY,3WIVES AND 5YOUNG DAUGHTERS AND NUMERUOS SONS,WOULD BE SPARED. I WOULD BE A GOODWILL GIFT. I LOVED THE FAMILY I SERVED.THEY WERE THE ONLY FAMILY I'D EVER KNOWN.SO,GIVING MY LIFE WAS THE ONLY THING I COULD DO. THIS DREAM WAS SO POWERFUL THAT I WOKE UP CRYING.TO HAVE DIED AS A VIRGIN AND SO YOUNG WAS BEYOND WORDS.
29th March 2006
sickcyclenz @ :
The Meditation CD is finally finished. After hours of mastering and fiddling about, im happy with it, finally! its $12.90 with free shipping in New Zealand, overseas may cost a bit more, but im happy to send it overseas if need be.
Buy Link: http://www.trademe.co.nz/Members/Listings.aspx?member=536850
Preview Link: http://www.audiostreet.net/artist.aspx?artistid=22346
The Cycle is unavoidable, we are all a part of it. Give in and let your mind be free.
The best of Ambient Jazz and bass, & heavy distorted drum n bass from Christchurch. "Sick Cycle" has been producing for over six years, and mixing for four. And, with five local releases and several number one's on "Audiostreet.net"'s unsigned charts behind him, your sure to be satisfied with the latest phase in the Cycle. The overall feel for the album "Meditation" is based around the Up and downs of life, and how it all balances out in the end.
All tracks are mastered:
1. Input (Intro)
2. Never Know: Ambient yet Sad sounding jazz and bass with Christchurch's "Jodi" on vocals.
3. Shell Shock: "Noisia Style" Heavy Bassline, with samples from the series "Band of Brothers".
4. Questions: Dark emotional jazz n bass, with Jodi on vocals again. Spanish Guitar and cathedral piano.
5. Waiting for an End: Distorted Growly Bassline, with Metal Guitar, and samples from Star Wars 3.
6. Amen Fury: Very technical Gangster Jungle with Christchurch's own 'MC Supreme' rapping in parts.
7. Output (Outro)
10th March 2006
anti_and_pro @ :
ALL LJ users welcome...add your city or your favorite place to the ALL THINGS LJ map No home street addresses please.
7th February 2006
jennychapman @ : The Dreamsbox & Sinsbox Projects | share dreams and sins
I was on blinklist and saw the following article about dreamsbox.com and sinsbox.com. Since its revelant to this community, I thought I would share it:
"2 documentation projects emerged this month to spearhead a new push in the Web 2.0 era for simplicity. The Dreamsbox (http://www.dreamsbox.com
) Project seeks to document the world's dreams, allowing for anonymous posting of dreams along with the creations of free personal dream diaries. The Sinsbox Project (http://www.sinsbox.com
) seeks to document sins and secrets, allowing for anonymous confessions and submissions of expressional art. Both projects allow for a unique rating system..."
Both projects are actually pretty addictive and fun. I love the fact that they're simple to use but their design kinda suck and sinsbox.comis a bit too dark and scandalous for me but nonetheless i'm addicted. As it turns out the guy who started the 2 projects went to school with me back in the days! Now I guess he's an internet junkie. haha! Anyways, please spread words about these 2 projects to friends and family if you can through word of mouth or through your own postings. In general, I just think that these two projects are very decent in terms of what they're trying to do. Read the "about" page to learn how cool these people are.
11th December 2005
sickcyclenz @ :
more strange dreams for y'all. this one has a lot of falling. there are dream theory books i have heard of. does anyone have one? what does falling mean?
bear with me, this was typed rather quickly as i wanted to try and remember all the possible details from the dream.
1: Skyscraper casino theft and skydive getaway
in a giant skyscraper single twin tower style builiding, i gamble in a vegas like casino. i bet several hundered dollars on the first hand/wateva game we're playing. somehow, i manage to win 1.5 million from the game, good odds i guess. begginners luck. the next round doesnt go so well, andi end up losing, we all do. there are aout 6 players sitting around the dtable, and a blonde 50's style baroque singer has won about 100million. shes pretty stoked, ut doesnt show it. im frustrated. i owe the house a lot of money, considering i only had 1.5mill, and shes just scored 100mill, apparenrly. so, instead of begging her to releave me of my debt, i conspire to steal from the casino. the next few scenes are a bit blurry, but i ended up killing a few guards and getting into the vault, scoring some cash, and making for the roof. i skydive off the roof with the loot. the builiding is fucking huge. its like im at 70,000 feet skydiving, i think i have a special breathing suit on. my speed builds, and fore some reason i find myself shaking sand off my hands like i were just at the beach building a sandcastle. anyway, the clouds come closer, as does the ground, and i pull my shoot at the oppurtune moment, losing speed only metres before the ground. i land, remove my shoot, and attempt to commondere a vehicle. it fails.
2: submarine/boat/hovercar thing that plays prodigy
whoosh, different scene. i have a device which can fly, skim, and be used as an underwater submarine style thing. ill draw a picture of it so you know what i mean, and repost it on this post later. so, i cruise round for a while, someone else is with me on the thing, i dont know who. i see a few familiar places as we drive around on the surfaqce in this 'wet and wild gold coast' style swimming pool theme park. one of the pools is empty though, next to the one we;re in. the one we;re in resembles the sea, there is a sunken ship with asian writing on it. now we use our submarine abilities to delve under the surface and investigate the ship for a diffrerent perspective. its not very intersting at all. so we g ive up. the second person on the thing disspaears, and i find myself wanting to try to fly the thing. its hard to get the hang of, but i get used to it. putting the rotors on a 80 degree angle to the water creates a change between the two matters, and lift is created, somehow. (fucked if in know, i didnt do physics..). so, im flying. on the left thumbstick there is brake (b), and something else that y does. theres a 'prodigy - voodoo people' button?!? so, i hit it. there must be speakers attached to the machine somewhere, and i find the track being blasted to the people below, who look up, mystified. also, i tihnk this time on the left thumbstick, there is a flare buttin, which trasils a rope from the bottom of the machine with white flares attached to it, dont know why. anyway, i get right into it and get wuite high up, the clouds clog my vision and i lose perception of how high i really am. damn, i trhink, im too high now, better start the descent. unfortunately, it is more difficult to descend than ascend in this maschinew, and i find myself siprally down, faster and faster, after several failed attempts at altitude loss without acceleration. shit, i realise, im losing the lift from the wings, and will end up just falling out of the sky at terminal velocity (again). so, i eject. my limp body falls to the ground and lands in the empty pool next to the the 'sea style pool with sunken ship that we investigated before'. butm never fear, that was one of my 'lives' and i respawn back on the doomed falling craft. however, this time, with the experience of the lost life, i manage to aim the craft at the pool. now, the craft has dissapeared altogether and its just me falling. however i do land in the pool, with a little nudge and strange twists of my body to fly me in different directions. using my body like a leaf falling from a tree. after i land, im still submerged, but people gather around to see if i im alive. i am, and they go nuts, jumping around, i dont know the people, but theres a black guy wiuth dreads that stands out. he is shaking me violently, while im still submerged, and all i want is a breath! i get up and breath.
whoosh, i wake up.
23rd November 2005
sickcyclenz @ :
had the strangest dream in ages last nite.
im a small spaceship, cruising round attacking and inevitably taking over and recruiting larger spaceships. my smaller size gives me more manoeuveurability, so i easily dodge their attacks and get within their docking bay with ease. this happens several times, untill a very large ship manages to destroy part of my ship with a swift multiple missile attack.
shit, im fucked! i bail, with my breathe held, and leap for the nearest ship. heres where it gets weird. the ship is a large leather glove, with a zip at the side, so a human can fit inside it and be disguised. i get the poor cunt out of the shipglove, and take it over for myself, like with previous mutinys.
i manage to board the larger ship which attacked my previous ship and forced me to take over the gloveship. i cruise round the corridors looking for somewhere to lax out. i need beers now, or something, after my ordeals. i find a small room with a bed and tv, a girl i really like at the moment 'olivia' is there, and i show her my identity, im really from an enemy ship, in disguise as a giant walking leatherglovehandship thing, and she cant tell anyone, otherwise im fucked, again.
i hear a noise coming from the door, shit, i pull back on my leatherglovehandsuitship thing and pretend im a part of the crew. its one of my friends 'rob'! he has peanuts. i gladly take some and feed myself through a small opening in the suitshipglovehand near my mouth.
20th November 2005
anti_and_pro @ :
The general sensation of this dream was that the house and people were famous/important/well liked by all.
It's a good place, good things happen there.( Read more...Collapse )
12th November 2005
anti_and_pro @ : much emotion flooded two nights in a row
...Here too I'm not asking for interpretations...but if you feel compelled to comment ..then have at it.
Two high powered dreams two nights in a row---on or about October 10th 2005 heavy duty emotions flodding over me upon waking from both.
The props in this dream: a meteor about 1/4 or 1/2 the size of the moon and the planet earth.
I'm standing looking towards a HUGE mountain range.
the huge meteor mentioned is coming down......it strikes land on the opposite side of that mountain range.
I "felt" the emotion one would have if they wittnessed the death of half of the planet's people.
SUDDENLY that meteor has "bounced" and it's headed straight at me.
I awoke with both of those powerfull emotions.
The very next night this dream:
I'm in a large city--skyscrapers the whole bit--
I'm watching as everybody is being lifted--or floats upwards towards.
All of them were 'going' to the same destination.
that 'destination' is the most wonderful place --or entity-that a human could ever imagine.
I awoke with the coresponding emotion washing over me
anti_and_pro @ : New guy in town
Any dreams that I submit are just for entertainment value.....I'm not asking for interpretation.
If you wish to comment thats ok...
Two dreams tonite.--about 20 minutes ago.
Nov 12 ’05
A dog is in a pen waiting.
I let him out.
He dashes off to a man in a chair.
The dog trys to get the mans attention.
The man—[dressed in farmers overalls]—pets the dog
the man doesn’t realize that the dog is aware of something.
Somethings near, or about to happen.
--the general feeling during this next part is
“calm” -[it’s just part of life]
The big farmer man is going to die any minute now.
The farmer—A very large man, with big hands—realizes
That he needs to do somethin important.
He gets up from the chair—[easy chair]
He starts walking but is soon stumbling.
The very large farmer with big hands
This man has made great contributions while he was
On this earth.
He is dying ……I get on the floor next to
At that instant I can feel a tugging on my insides
Like they are being drawn to a magnet
Dave keeps buggin me while I’m trying to……….
He sits in a chair next to me while
I’m on the toilet.
I’m trying to impress upon him
He combs his hair and exits.
Seems he’s moving out today
He left behind quite a pile of wadded up clothes and stuff
13th August 2005
flamepony @ : seals and penguins
I am new ... so HI!!
I have been having the most crazy dreams lately, and so vivid! Last night I dreamed that I was hanging with some friends in DC,and was surprised that once we got to a party I found Ben (who I am crazy about), was with Beth who he didnt even really know very well ... and who I never really liked very much. After that unpleasant surprise!, a few of us left and we were trying to get out of a multistorey car park but kept going around in circles for ages and couldnt find our way out. When we finally pulled up to the pay station, I wound down the window and these people were holding a huge white seal which leaped forward, slipping out of the guys arms and right through the window onto my lap.It was a really nice friendly seal so we took it with us. I held it while we drove and it was so warm and its fur was so soft. Then me and the seal were inseparable ... the seal followed me everywhere, like a loyal dog, but I had to keep finding water to wet it down ... and find fish for it, which was horrible as I hate the smell of fish markets.
When I woke up I was kinda disappointed that it was a dream as the white seal was so cool! What was weird is that a couple nights earlier I had a dream where I found a lost fairy penguin and was trying to keep it at my place without anyone finding out about it. I dont remember much else about that dream.
Can anyone can shed some light on what this might mean? ... particularly the 'arctic'theme!
4th June 2005
star_loser27 @ :
Hi, i just joined, i was wondering if someone could help me out by telling me what these dreams mean, it would mean a lot to me <3 thanks
The first one:
I had to escort some "criminal" to somewhere in Arizona or Washington. And me, Mayra G., Tito, i think Arnold (my ex), and Richard went to some amusement park and we rode this roller coaster. Me and Mayra weren't strapped in and i remember asking her "Aren't they supposed to check?" and she was like "yeah", so before the "big" drop i strapped myself in. Then we got off and i said something about cooking corizo and eggs for them and Richard was like "you can cook?" and i was like yeah. Then my uncle came to pick me up and something to do with a dog? I got the corizo from my brothers house and made it for them. Then we were on some journey thing, and i had to go through these river things where motorcycle cops ride on the water. But i made it through because i saw Lori and Jessica under the water breathing through reeds, so i used paper i think...I think we took the criminal to some cave or something, and something about dirty water and a cobra. Thats all i remember about that part. Then i was in some place like...a petting zoo, and we had to feed birds in a machine. And i saw my grandma. Then my mom came and we we're supposed to not know my grandma, but my mom "blew the cover" and i had to play some game where i was Sonic the Hedgehog...and i went through this weird tunnel thing and had to go down the slide and i said something like "aren't the guards supposed to come?" and then they came when i was there and i said something like "thats not fair." Thats all i remember about that dream.
My sister and I got some kitten...but it could talk...and it was named after some store...or something...all i know is that it was some computer store...well yeah, we were supposed to take that cat there to find something out about it, and we were going to take my moms car, but something happened to it. So we took my sisters, and she was like "i'm almost out of gas." and i looked on her meter and it was half full. So we were there and i turned into Monica from Friends. And i saw some wedding card and then i heard the announcer say something like "the store is now closed" and the cat turned into a person. Thats the last time i saw the cat. Well yeah, i was Monica, and i married Chandler at some church thing. And after i got married i turned back into me. The Mauro came 'cause we were supposed to see someone else's wedding and he escorted me there 'cause we were part of the ceremony. And yeah, but we were in like...regular clothes. It was weird. And then Jessica, Lori, and Abigael were part of the thing as well. And i remember when i was waiting for someone to escort me some guy with like...hick hair and a mustache came and asked me and Jessica was like "i'll go with you." lmao, so she went. Then me and Mauro were talking and i was like "ooh yeah, i just got married" and he was like "yeah, so did i, my wife makes fun of me though." and thats all i remember about that dream too.
And somewhere in those 2 dreams Paulie(another one of my ex's) was having a war with me...and he made shirts...it was weird.
1st June 2005
peachykeen1 @ :
it started off me walkin to the chip shop and i bumped into some lad from school who liked me and i went out with him for like 2 days n dumped him, but when i bumped into him he told me he was engadged and i was gutted and he went to kiss me but i had food in my mouth (lmao) but i wanted to kiss him, then he just walked away i seen him goin into a cafe to meet his fiance just as i was about to ask for his number and i seen his fiance so i just walked away and i was very upset. then end
29th May 2005
xbornconfuzedx @ :
the past two days have been realllllyyy weird...i have had the weirdest set of dreams and i wonder if anything is connected.
the day before yesterday i had a weird dream:
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i dont know how much i can remember, i can just remember that i had something weird in my stomach. when i first noticed it,it was some kind of worms and i hid it from everyone and then it started bleeding alot and there was a hole in my stomach, and lots of blood loss. and suddenly i appear in my uncle's house in Kenya. its so weird because i go from America to Kenya. how weird is that? I dont know if i actually died because i woke up....
and then in my second dream,i was in a college orientation, and it was in a beach area. thats the weird part because im going to college up north. I had a dream that i was almost pulled away by the waves, and the waves were huge. its like when youre in a house sort of thing, and youre in the balcony and all of a sudden you see a giant wave coming at your face. and the wave is pulling me into the water. i struggle to get out and go back into the house but then my friend is being pulled away. i tried to go help and save her. the weird part is theresother students sitting on the otherside completely unaffected by this. and theres this one part that i remember so vividly. theres a part of the orientation tour where the tour guide tells us to do something. were all a group of incoming freshmen, and he tells us all to climb a bunch of stairs in this giant building, and im talking like million of stairs. i get lazy and tos omeone else i say something stupid and this guy comes up to me and he's like "dont be a loser" i donte xactly remember wutt he said but i just remember some guy telling me something like that. and then somehow i win and the tour guide tells us to befriend the person behind us. it was almost like the whole purpose of that was to make friends easily. i dont rememebr the rest of the dream. i almost died inboth dreams, its strange.
the major symbol of my first dream was blood
and teh major symbol of my second dream was a tsunami related wave?
i just felt the need to share this with someone
7th January 2005
mistress_undead @ : dream
My name is Alicia And Ive been having this recurring dream over and over about a house a hill and a big scary tree kind of like the house from that movie poltergeist and I feel a very bad feeling about this house I dont want to approach it it has a wind chime in the door way and i finally go in and see spirits anyone know what this means???
I also had a dream about this guy I went out with once and he never called me back I was being worshipped as queen of the fairytales in fairy tale land and this guy who I have a major crush on was burying people in a cave old people hurting them and instead of asking him why is he doing this horrible thing i wanted to have sex with him so he pulled out his penis and it was big and then we went to his tents were he was camping out and noone would let us use there tent to have sex in weird huh???
I also see things in my room like one night i saw a dead girl with a pink backpack and one night i saw something coming out of my ceiliing like something that looks like it belongs in the ocean anyone know what any of this means??? I seriously would like some help and if you cant help please dont respond
14th November 2004
letsgetcrazy722 @ : Survey for Psychology Class!
Your Dream Habits:
What is the last dream you can remember having?
Do your dreams usually relate to problems in your life?
What is a problem or circumstance you've been having/ are going through lately?
Has this been reflected in your dreams?
When your worried or excited do you have dreams more often, or do your dreams become more vivid?
Have you ever had dreams that have come true, or ever dreamt of someone just to meet them later?
Have you ever had a recurring dream?
If so, what was it?
Do you often remember your dreams when you wake up?
Have you ever had a dream, to find that someone you know had the same dream?
If so, was it on the same night you had that dream?
Do your dreams affect how you feel during the day or your actions in a situation?
Have you ever died in a dream?
Do you dream in color?
Have you ever had something traumatic happen to you in a dream?
Do your dreams often involve familiar people or places?
Do your dreams often have a common theme or idea?
What is your opinion on dreams?
Do you believe that your unconscious is trying to tell you something, or do you believe that your brain is just trying to process the information you've gained?
Do you believe in dream interpretation?
Have you ever tried to interpret your dreams or had someone else interpret them?
27th August 2004
dead_inside_06 @ :
Hi Im Leighann...Hows it going? I guess I'll post my dream..
I was in this red car with the one person I really love, Rhiannon. We were having an awesome time until we got to our house. Everything was fine, but she got mad and started throwing bottles at me and hitting me and everything. It was like she wanted to kill me.
Then of course I woke up before finding out why, but yeah, just thoughtd I post in here. Any opinions guys?
30th December 2003
deftones_change @ :
This dream occured quite a few weeks ago...
I was on a spaceship with my mates as well as the person I really like. He ws shot by his best mate over some sort of drug deal and I got to hold him in my arms and got one little kiss before he passed away...
9th January 2003
terabella77 @ : Dream I had last night (wierd)
Well, I had a dream that I was trapped in an elevator in a haunted motel. For some odd reson I wasn't able to exit the elevator, but it would still stop at different floor levels picking up & dropping off other people. When I tried to exit, I would end up right back in the elevator! The other strange part was, no one even acknowledged me while in the elevator. I also had the feeling of fear through out the entire dream. Does anyone know what this might mean?
7th May 2002
ladyvyxen @ :
i had a dream that there was this group of guys and they were all crowded around in a tight circle and i walk by and they go "dude look! we found some drugs!" and they start opening it and taking the pills out and i go "you guys are so fucking retarded. THOSE ARE BIRTH CONTROL PILLS! idiots!" and i take a pill, swallow it, and walk away.